the morning after the day before

so i have been doing my morning pages- past two days right first day it worked out great - in terms of mental sanity and clarity. second day was fine until someone (namely husband ) misinterpreted a question for me harassing him at work and well after that it went pear shaped. i mean seriously does this happen to other people? here it is - you call someone up you say something and they misinterpret it- they expect (expectations are a fucking killer) that you are appraoching them in a way you are not and when their expectations dont match what you are actually trying to acheive and your attempt at communication is foiled beca`use instaead of hearing you they are expecting from you and well - then you react to their expectations by meeting them even though that isnt how this attempt began it wasnt desired - but the reaction to the expectation foils the day? foils the mind. its just so fucking hard sometimes right especially when this one person is meant to be the one person that knows you - and instead of feeling of knowing or even listening their expecting creates a barrier and it goes to hell. does this make any sense? because this is todays morning pages substitute and well this one is online and caffeinated and are their lots of people out there who drink drip coffee who feel close to the edge? drip coffee is kind of evil . personal opinion. dont like it not at all. so this week my mum is having her bum explored and some polyps removed- and a camera to go further then the first to check anal canal continuity- i kinda wish i could have a up my bum for no purpose other then to see- who wouldnt want to explore their innards with a camera? i am certainly game- i mean i have seen them burn pieces of cervix off me- on telly- the smell was worse then the sight for sure. so much more to see up my ass though bigger vistas longer tubes. nice piece. so this weekend we are heading east- to ellensberg to stay saturday night and exploring the ginkgo petreified forest saturday and cle elum and rosalyn on sunday. wishing it would have been a two nighter but tim is out of days off and work is precarious - lay offs inevitable as with everywhere i guess. i am hungry for some more work---- looking and looking - getting back on the web wagon for fun and something to keep and maintain at least a fiber of sanity during the bad months. i dont want to live someplace that has bad months- i am aiming towards at least spending winters not here. arizona. wouldnt want to be there all the time but hell those red rocks and the mystery of the desert is something i fall more and more in love with daily. again not as a full time residence but part time...